Keep Me Floating

crazy

2009-10-16T07:18:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I found out something that has totally turned my world around. It makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it. I can't put it on here but can only express the emotions that I'm going through at this moment. This seriously will hurt one of the people that I love the most in life and I can't do anything about it. I can only decide to make the decision whether or not I even want to expose it. Have you ever been in that place where whatever you decide could possibly alter another person's world forever? That's where I'm at. I'm right at Pandora's box and I'm about to open it. If you feel the earth shake for a second..then it's because of me. I just don't get it. I'm hurt..by one of the people that I loved as well. Everything is going to be crazy, and my heart will break as well but I have to do what's right. Pray for me.

Hello...is this thing on??

2009-10-05T08:04:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone!!

Just a quick update over here. Not much going on. Most of you know that I'm knee deep in school so my life is pretty much over until the Christmas holidays. But just wanted to let everyone know that I'm doing great! Well, as good as could be expected I should say. Gavin is doing great too! He's absolutely LOVING kindergarten and that makes me happy. Believe or not guys, I think he's starting to finally come out of his shell. Yay! Other than that, I've decided that I'm not going to do anymore dating anytime soon. I took the Summer off and surprisingly enough I enjoy the fact that thAT part of my life is drama free. I figure that I just need to finish school, get a good job and get a place of mine and Gavin's own before I try to bring someone new into our life. Granted, it does get a little lonely but right now I'm so busy that I fail to notice. I probably will go through my usual "holiday depression" once my break hits. What fun! But anyways, that's about all that's going on with me. How is everyone else doing??

Update

2009-08-31T07:10:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!

Yes, I'm aware that I haven't updated in awhile..so here it goes. First off, school has officially started for both Gavin and I. And let me just say, Gavin is doing great!! Compared to Pre-K where it took him 3 months to stop crying, he has officially done a 180 turn! He cried the first day (which most can see on my myspace, ) but since that first day he has done excellent! No tears, no stress..ohhh it's been wonderful! He actually went into school today on his own and found his class..BY HIMSELF! He's growing up and no longer attached to his mother's hip *sniff*..it's bittersweet. I'm losing my baby but gaining a confident little boy. I'm just so proud of him. Now on to me, I'm doing great! I have yet to have a clinical (the first day is this wednesday,) but I've already had lecture and I already love my new teacher. She's very informative and SO much more different than my last lecture teacher..thank God!! I'm sure clinical will go smoothly, so I'm not going to worry too much about it. ALSO, I am officially training for the 5k Turkey Trot (3.1 miles) that happens on Thanksgiving Day. I've been active all Summer (which I've lost 25 more pounds,) and now I've started jogging with Tim 3 days a week and jogging on my own 2 days a week. I officially ran my first mile without stopping yesterday. What a great feeling!! It's amazing because I never thought that I could say that I can actually jog 1 whole mile. CraZY! Other than that, things are going good! I'm missing my friends though, especially you Dina!! When am I going to see you next? And come on now Manda, when in the heck are you scheduled to get your butt down here..hmmm? Anyways, hope everyone is doing well and I'll update again soon!

Getting things together.

2009-08-14T06:36:00.001-07:00

I'm up early and I'm trying desperately to get things together. Got to buy Gavin's school clothes/supplies..and take him to get his hair cut. I also have to do a couple of things on my end to make my life easier. So I'm up early, took my mom to work so I can borrow her car and now my brother freakin' needs it so he can drive to Van Zandt and make his court date. I wish I had my own car..hopefully soon. I wish my brother didn't have a freakin' jalopy for his car...ugh. I'm just so frustrated. I'm ready to get all this stuff done!!

On the opposite end.

2009-07-30T22:49:00.000-07:00

Have you ever just been on the opposite end of a friend and the situation that they're going through? And all you're wanting to do is tell them that you can see what's outside the "box" and that it doesn't look good. I'm in that situation right now, and it's just so frustrating. I just want to save his heart and I know that I cant..because he has to make his decisions on his own. But I see where it's all leading too...like I'm the only one that's flipping the pages of the book and seeing exactly what's going to happen next. I know that he has to make these moves regardless if he's not right..this is how you learn...life lessons. But he's already been through this...I feel he's heading down the same path and that I'm the only one that can stop him from inevitable pain. But I can't! I just have to be that person that supports him regardless of how I feel. Man, it would just be so nice to be able to just fix this for him....why do I feel like I know how? I don't know..I just feel that way. Pray for me.

How are things?

2009-07-30T11:45:00.000-07:00

How is everyone doing? Haven't heard much from you guys. Things are ok here. I'm actually ready for school to start..isn't that crazy? Guess I'm just ready to get it over with..one more year and I'm done! I feel the need to redecorate today. Maybe I'll paint Gavin's room. He needs a change before he starts Kindergarten. I'm just in the cleaning, organizing, redecorating mood. Is this nesting? I feel like I'm nesting..lol. And NO..I'm not pregnant so for those of you who have that in your head..get it out immediately! lol. Mel and Jon are house hunting now. I'm excited for them! Mel has already found a house that she likes...all of it is so much fun. Can't wait 'til the day that I'm looking for my own home. EEeeeeK. This year is going to fly by..I have a feeling. So anyways, let me know how y'all are doing. Everyone going to Jenny's birthday dinner??

Could things just be easy for once?

2009-07-17T08:38:00.000-07:00

It seems like everytime I talk to Karen she is going through something regarding her new relationship. I sit on the opposite end listening to her newest trouble..all the while trying to figure out how I can fix it. I've come to the conclusion that I feel that I'm that type of person who needs to fix things, regarless of the problem. Have I always been that way? Already after this 30 min. conversation we had today, I have come up with at least three solutions to her dilemma. So if I'm so apt. to want to fix everyone's problems...why can't I fix my own? Instead I spend minute after minute analyzing the current situation I'm in just to find myself calling Theresa to help me fix it. Is this just a viscious cycle? Why can't things just be easy for once so there is no problem solving involved? But just happiness and giddiness and Cloud 9-ess..lol. Aggghhhh. It's so frustrating!

Sometimes

2009-06-21T08:03:00.001-07:00

it's just hard to know that you feel something for somebody that might not feel it back for you. Is this what a crush truly is? Do you ever think it would be better if we all could just have arranged marriages and skip all of this mumbo jumbo? But then I hear that these feelings are the best when you meet someone...that they remind you that you're still alive. They have truly reminded me that I'm alive but man...talk about a spin cycle of hope, pain, sadness, and happiness going on in my stomach. But it's all good...I'm finding that it's been a lot easier to just go with the flow...and not allow myself to get my hopes up. In fact, I'm pretty guarded and am almost prepared for anything. I know that doesn't sound good..but those who know me understand what I've been through...I would have to be an idiot not to be somewhat guarded. Anyways, just had to get all of this off my chest. I hope everyone is doing well!

Am I right side up or upside down?

2009-06-14T11:51:00.000-07:00

Not having air conditioning totally sucks ass. It's not the whole house..but it happens to be my room, Gavin's room, basically the front side of the house. So I have been sleeping in the den on the couch and my back hurts so bad right now that I'm absolutely MISERABLE. So basically this is a bitching blog...I'm bitchy..lol. Excluding Theresa coming over yesterday..this weekend has pretty much sucked. My mom and dad have been fighting ALL weekend...Karen has pissed Melanie off, and let me mention again that I'm freaking HOT and can barely walk. Things are just kisses and roses over here. Ok, enough of that...go about your day..lol. Thank you.

There is hope!

2009-05-28T13:27:00.000-07:00

Ok! So if some of you don't know...I wasn't able to go to the Dave Matthews concert this month. I know right? It's completely unheard of and I have been in a depression since they've been here. The reason why I couldn't go is because I have absolutely NO money. Since Erik has lost his job there has been no child support coming in at all...and I can't find a patient tech job to save my life. Anyways, the very last date on their tour is on October 2nd in Tulsa, OK. And guess who's going? That's right! Come hell or high water I will make it to see him this year...I mean come on...they have a new album coming out next month..that means it's a new album tour..and new album tours are AWESOME. So I'm happy. Have to figure out how I'll be able to afford tickets..but I DO have three months. EeeeK! So happy now.

Working it out

2009-05-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I'm dating this guy and get this...he wants me to rock climb with him! Rock climb..yes, rock climb! You guys knOW me! I'm a big fine woman who really isn't all that active. But this guy is so cute and so adorable and it's so hard for me to tell him no. So anyways, I started working out Monday. I've been walking two miles a day and I'm feeling really good. Am I anywhere near in shape to go rock climbing?? Ummmm..NO...lol. I've even told this guy that I'm just not in good enough shape..but he's so sweet and he tells me that I can start out at the beginners level and how he would support me and all that good stuff. So anyways, I think I'm going to try it. Not this week and probably not next week. I want to give myself a month. I think after a month of walking and hopefully weight training...maybe I'll be ready? Anyways, it does excite me though...I love getting out and trying new things. So we'll see what happens.

3rd Level Baby!!

2009-05-13T20:01:00.001-07:00

So I made it through my final today!! I'm so happy that I passed and that I can actually enjoy people's company again...man I miss that! I'm ready for the Summer with Gavin and I'm ready to date this guy that I think is SO adorable. Wow, I am just truly blessed to have made it this far!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

2009-05-10T12:26:00.000-07:00

I hope all you moms have a great day today! Mine has been perfect so far!!!

I miss my friends.

2009-05-04T07:45:00.000-07:00

Yep, I do miss my friends. Dina, Teresa, Manda, April and Jenny to name a few. Have we grown apart? I know that so much is going on with everyone's life. Mine too, man..school has been sucking the life blood out of me. But still, I think about you guys all the time and hope that we'll all find ourselves in the same place at the same time soon. Summer is coming up and that means a lot of catch up is going to be done. I hope everyone can understand that it is school that is taking so much of me. I have two more lecture tests and then I'm done with the semester. I want to see everyone!! I hope everyone is doing good..especially Teresa's new little girl. I can't wait to see her! Anyways...those are my thoughts for the day..needed to vent before I get on with my studying. Love love love!

SO HAPPY

2009-04-20T09:35:00.001-07:00

So I had my midterm evaluation today and it went great. I'm currently holding an A in clinical and skills! And I just found out that I made an A on my Major care plan which is 50% of my grade! I worked my ass off on it so I'm thrilled. Just wanted to share the news!! Yay!

???

2009-04-16T20:50:00.001-07:00

Am I really allowing my past to change the person that I use to be? What happened to that person that used to jump in head first always? I've always seen the good in everything. I've always been on the optimistic side of life. Has that changed? Here lately, I've actually found myself jaded. I feel like I'm losing that person that everyone loves..over what? Over stupid stupid stuff. Over a damn wall that used to never be up. Honestly, what am I so afraid of? Everything that was bad happened, and now it's over. I'm just glad that I have such faith in God to believe that I'm exactly where I need to be right now.

For Dina..

2009-04-16T11:44:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I promised Dina that I would start posting on here what I post on myspace considering she doesn't have a myspace account anymore (LoSeR). So here it is girlie..

I wish

I wish I was where I needed to be right now. First off, I'm tired of being scared to speak my mind on this place. There was a time where I could just let it out and not have to wonder if I was giving the wrong impression to the people who currently sit on my site as "friends". Given, most of them are friends..but most of them have not a clue about what's going on with me. I hate that feeling...you know how that person on T.V. feels when they bleep out a cuss word or something..I bet it pisses them off..I bet they have the same feeling as I do right now. So I say fuck it. Writing my thoughts has always been therapeutic for me..so why do I care now who reads this? I only care about the people who care about me..so all you others...move on, thanks. I'm currently tired of people who say they are your friend, but act completely one-sided. Yeah, as a matter of fact..I do care how you're doing..I do love your stories..I do hope that you're doing good...but for God's sake..do you honestly just like hearing yourself speak? Imagine having an hour long conversation with someone and you haven't said a word...it's freakin' eery. You get off the phone and you think.."how in the hell does that happen?" Well, I say screw that noise. I'm here sick, and pissy...and depressed. Yeah, I'm in a funk. A true friend would actually have the common courtesy to say "hey, I'm sorry you're sick..what's going on?..need to talk about anything?" Ughhh. I'm just tired of myself allowing it to ALWAYS be about you. And for those who know me, you're probably wondering to yourself how I've even let this happen...trust me, I have no clue. But I'm sick and tired of not having a voice. Speaking of not having a voice. Let me get onto the subject of dating. What in the hell are you guys thinking..seriously? Will there please, for the love of God..be one man that is actually interested in something other than what's going on with them? I'm back to the same statement as before...why does it always have to be about you? So I'm tired..yeah, tired of disappointment. I'm officially cutting off dating indefinitely. I just can't do it anymore. I took a two month break over the holidays for this exact reason. I'm tired of this "yeah, i'm looking for a long-term relationship" blah blah blah bullshit. Do you guys honestly think that us girls are looking for a man just do have sex with?? Seriously, it's not hard to find one of those guys. Why do you think we put such an effort to into actually finding someone? Because we need to get some?? I mean COME ON NOW. Where has the love gone? I mean the actual process of falling in love...can someone please tell me where it has gone? Because there has yet to be man that I have met that hasn't been interested in getting into my pants after a night of knowing them. I just want something more. I crave something more. But on my end...would you continue to sit there as someone bangs you upside the head with a hammer..or are you going to move on?? Exactly. I'm done. I'm DONE.

Gavin's surgery.

2008-07-22T22:14:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to let everyone know that Gavin will be having surgery on his tongue on Thursday. He's tongue tied and his ENT is finally ready to do the procedure. He's going to be put under (which scares me)..but I know everything will be ok. Please just say a little prayer for him and keep him in your thoughts. Love to everyone.

Sometimes...

2008-06-06T21:46:00.000-07:00

I get truly sick to my stomach thinking about life. It hit me today. I'm in the pajama section at the new Walmart by Karen's house and I'm standing there...while Melanie and Karen are shopping..and I get an aching feeling in my stomach. It's one of those feelings that slowly creep up on you on other not-so-important days but you manage to push those feelings back and think about other things...but I couldn't do that today. It's like it all hit me at once. The thing is...my heart is broken. I think I have figured out every way imaginable to repress this fact....but it's there..and I think it's time for me to just face it. I have been done wrong...very wrong...by the person I loved the most. And I think about it all the time...which makes me sick. I just feel like I've been thrown away...and that I didn't matter otherwise...I'm so disposable..and it hurts. The crazy part is that I try to make excuses....even now...I'm so pathetic. But when you have that lump in your throat that you're continuously trying to swallow...it's a reminder of how much pain I'm going through..and of how much I will go through until something unexplainable happens. I don't know what it will be or who will make it happen...but I'm just ready for it to be done with. Unfortunately, I have a heart and I have a conscience..and I have a beautiful son that reminds me of him more and more each day. Maybe there will be a day where I just snap out of this nightmare and life will make me happy again...we'll see.

I WANT TO MOVE!!

2008-05-25T16:12:00.000-07:00

You know it's getting bad when wherever you go or whatever you do....makes you sick. I mean, I'm getting to that point that I need to start looking for a place to settle down. I have two years 'til I finish school and then I basically have a free range over whatever I want to do. For some crazy reason, Colorado has been in my mind. It's not across the world from Texas..but at the same time..it's far enough. Maybe this is just a phase..I dunno. Maybe I'll fall in love with some amazing guy and want to settle down here...who knows. I'm just not feelin' Dallas anymore. And plus, there's a definite perk....Dina's there!!!!!!!

Sometimes..

2008-05-12T20:55:00.000-07:00

It just sucks not having those certain kind of butterflies.

Hallelelujah!!!

2008-05-07T19:46:00.000-07:00

*Sings* Last day of class, last day of class, I'm so happy that it's my last day of class!!

Yes people, I had my last final in Micro today and I think I may have actually made an A in the class. So look out Summer, here I come. I told Karen today that it's going to be like instead of Girl's Gone Wild that it's going to be Stacy Gone Wild....well, without flashing my boobs and humping imaginary beings..(well maybe that a little bit lmao). So it looks like I've got a lot of stuff planned. Deidra's shower, Gavin's b-day, trip to the beach. I'm going to be busy...but I don't care! I have the whole Summer with Gavin! (Stay tuned for the email in which it states that I'm tired of kids..LMAO!)

tests, tests, and MORE TESTS.

2008-04-27T14:20:00.001-07:00

I'm so sick of tests. People who are in school right now..am I going crazy..or is class involved around freakin' tests? I mean, it would be nice to learn and discuss..but it seems like every class is preparing for a test..ugH. I can understand focusing on a test the week before..but it's every freakin' day. I'm just tired of how EVERYTHING is about tests. I have a lab test tomorrow. Then I have two tests on the 7th. You guys don't even know how happy I'm going to be when school is over!! I'll have the Summer free..with Gavin..it's going to be so great!!!

Is there such a thing as the Spring-time blues?

2008-04-25T14:45:00.000-07:00

I've been really down here lately. Normally I get this during the Winter..but it's here now..and I'm tired of it. The biggest contributing factor is Erik. *Sigh* Gavin just misses him so much and I don't even know if Erik understands that or not. I do my best not to mention the word "daddy" around Gavin...but it's always Gavin that brings him up. I know he's happy when he talks about him...but it kills me inside. It almost reminds me of that pain that you feel when your extremely homesick...that's what I think Gavin is feeling now. I just wish I knew what was going on it Erik's head. I've known him for seven years so I know he has a heart...I know he does. But something is just not right about this entire thing. But anyways, I'll continue to analyze it to death like normal. Life would just be so much easier if Erik saw Gavin on a regular basis. It would be an answer to my prayers and it would make me the happiest person imaginable.

A lot of things going on.

2008-04-22T09:25:00.001-07:00

Sheesh! I've got a lot to do! First is to finish school!!! Well this semester anyways. I have one lab test and one lecture test left in Micro. I have one test and one paper due for Dev. Psychology. Then I'm done! Woo hoo! I also have a baby shower to plan for. It's for Deidra...some of you may have met her at Gavin's last b-day party and our last Halloween party. She's having a little boy, so I'm going to be throwing her a baby shower on the 17th. I also have Gavin's birthday to plan for. I'm thinking about keeping it simple because I really want to save my money up to take him to the beach. Maybe I'll just have it being a pool party again...not sure. I did plan to have it in Karen's backyard and rent a petting zoo...but that's just too expensive..it sucks. But anyways, invites will go out soon. Dina, when are you coming down? Did you say June? I remember you saying that you would be down but I totally forgot the month. So after ALL of that, I get to go to my orientation at El Centro. Ugh, got to get fitted for their WHITE uniforms. And let me just tell you, white isn't a big girl's favorite color...ugh. I'm officially on another diet...lol.

So I have a lot going on. When is it going to be the time for relaxation???...

It ACTUALLY happened!!!

2008-04-17T15:12:00.000-07:00

Yes people. It actually happened. I'm now an official nursing student!! I recieved my acceptance letter into the El Centro's nursing degree program just now and I'm just beaming. I have worked sooooooo hard and I'm finally seeing the results!!! I'm just too excited for words, I just wish I could climb up on my roof and yell it loud to everyone "I'M GOING TO BE A NURSE, BITCHES!!!" lmao...lmao....eeeeeeeeeK!!!!!!!!!

I'm BACK!

2008-04-16T08:04:00.001-07:00

So I've decided that I'm going to start blogging back on here again. It's just so hard to blog about personal things on myspace without it getting to people that I hardly know. I'm sure you guys know what I'm talking about. And plus, I miss this place. I still check everyone's blog and I'm needing to get back into the mix of things. So anyways, this is what's going on now. I'm sick to my stomach about it. BUT, either today or tomorrow is when I'll know whether or not I'll get into nursing school. They sent out the letters yesterday and since this place is super close to me..I'm assuming that I'll get it today. So these thoughts have been racing in and out of my head about the what-ifs. I mean, what if I don't get accepted? I guess it wont be the end of the world..but it's a major set-back that I dread having to go through. I keep telling myself that if I don't get accepted that there has to be a reason...a really good reason. I'm just keeping my faith in God that he's leading me down the path that I'm meant to go down. So everyone just say a little prayer, and I'll update you guys once I find out.

Also, I'm dealing with the stresses of Erik right now. Talk about someone I don't even know anymore...man...it's crazy. On the 25th of this month it will be FOUR months since he's seen Gavin. I'm still trying to wrap my head around it. I do have to say that I'm doing better than I thought I would. I guess that just shows how strong I truly am. I'm finding myself enjoying life again and I'm noticing that I'm actually able to look at my son without having to see his father. I'm able to enjoy Gavin...I haven't been able to say that in a long time. It may sound weird...but I went through an emotional shock that kept me from experiening any good emotions..they were all bad..for a really long time. But things are looking up. I've actually lost fourty pounds now and I'm well on my way to being my pre-pregnancy weight. I've got a new haircut which I absolutely adore and I'm feeling really confident with myself. I'm actually finding myself having a crush...and it's super fun. So things are a lot better.....and I think I'm pretty much happy right now. Can you tell I'm smiling when I say that?..lol. However, I terribly miss my friends. I miss everyone together. I realize that Teresa's birthday is coming up and she hasn't even told me if she has anything planned. I miss the birthday dinners with everyone...and now almost everyone is gone *sniff*. I'm so serious, but we're going to need to like start having reunions or something because this is ridiculous.

So I guess that's about it right now. I'm about to get ready to go to school. I have until the first week of May 'til school is over and I'm SO READY. I have been going to school non-stop since last Spring. That's all through Summer and everything so I'm in desperate need of a vacation!! I'm going to enjoy this Summer like crazy. I CANNOT wait.

Well, I hope everyone is doing good. I miss you guys!!

I'm just ready for it to be over!

2007-07-17T13:37:00.001-07:00

I'm tired of school. I know it's the same song and dance for me..but it seems that this is a never ending road. You can't even imagine how defeated I feel knowing that the hardest part is still ahead of me..*sigh*. I just need to vent about this. Don't get me wrong this Anatomy II class could be A LOT worse. I mean, the teacher is nice and fun and she gives us reviews! I'm pratically in heaven! But I'm just tired. I should have taken the whole Summer off but decided that taking Anatomy II in one month is MUCH better than taking it in 3 and a half months. So, I'll get over this. The second week is almost over and that means I'll just have three more weeks.

I've also started TOPS last week. That's new news. If you don't know what TOPS is..it's kind of like weight watchers but costs WAY less and you don't by a point system. Well anyways, it's my mom, me, Melanie, and Karen going so i hope we can keep up with it. I'll update you guys on any weight loss.

So anyways, Have a good week!

Can someone please explain all of this rain?!

2007-06-26T13:16:00.000-07:00

I just don't get it. How can it be the end of June and we're still getting TONS of rain. Is it global warming? Someone please explain. I'm tired of looking at my pool and not being able to get into it. This truly sucks.

Updating you all.

2007-06-14T10:28:00.000-07:00

Ok, I've had questions from some of you about how Gavin and daycare is doing so here's the scoop. Gavin has been going to daycare since last Monday. He still cries every morning and proceeds to tell everyone he sees in the morning that he is not going. I swear it is breaking my heart. It's funny though, when I go to pick him up he's in a really good mood and his teacher says that he's starting to warm up a little. The first day was the hardest though. Yep, tears were shed from him and me too! But I think this is a good thing for him. He needs to get out and interact with kids his own age instead of being here with Kenzie cooped up in the house. When I get the chance I'll post pics of his first morning in front of his daycare.

In other news, if some of you haven't heard..I dropped my nursing class. I went for two days and it was just awful. Let me explain. I was told when I registered for this one month class that it would be 14 people only. So i was thinking great..a small class...I'll be able to ask questions and everything will be great. BUT on my first day they informed us that they were putting three classes together. A total of 45 people and THREE professors. I was like...what the hell? So I decided to stick it out for a couple of days. But it was impossible. Everyone kept fighting for the equipment that we're supposed to learn on...and frankly...it was a pain in my ass. So tomorrow I am registering for the same class for the fall. It starts at the end of October oddly enough, but I'll still get to apply for the program for next fall not next spring. Anyways, I'm enrolled in Anatomy II for Summer II so things are still going as planned...but with just a minor change.

So now I'm here at home with no kids and bored as all get out. I did go to the dollar movie yesterday to see Norbit and it was a lot of fun. I haven't gotten to do that in forever. And the movie was really funny. So anways, better get back to doing nothing. I just want to thank everyone for making Gavin's birthday so special. He is enjoying all of his new toys and looking so cute in his new clothes!! We missed you Dina and Manda!!

Love everyone!

I DID IT PEOPLE.....I DID IT!!!!

2007-05-31T20:49:00.000-07:00

I can PROUDLY say that I made an A in my Algebra class!!!!!!! WOO HOOOOO! You guys don't even know how freakin' excited I am about this. I have literally worked my ass off. And plus my occasional bitching and moaning gave you quite a hint on how I really truly view Algebra..pain in my ass! But God bless my professor...GOD BLESS HIM!

Also, I made A's in my Compisition class and my Psychology class. So what does that mean? Anybody? Anybody? That means, that when I get an A in the nursing basic skills class that I am taking in Summer I. I will officially be applying to El Centro's nursing program with a 4.0 GPA. Ahhhhhh...how great life is.

In other news, Gavin is starting his first daycare on Monday. I enrolled him today and I feel really good about it. Completely out of my mind with nerves, anxiety, and sadness. But I know that once he gets used to it, he's going to love it. The reason I'm having to do this is because of that nursing class. It starts on Monday and it's a 4 hour morning class. I told my dad about it about a month ago and he was like "I'll watch Gavin, but I can't watch Kenzie." Everybody knows that girl is a holy terror...lol. So I talk to Erik and we decided that this would be best. This will be a great summer...I can just feel it.

I'll make sure to take pictures of his first morning and post them up here. I keep trying to tell him that he's going to start school on Monday but he's in denial...lol...it's so cute. Keep your fingers crossed for him.

So I'm off to bed, I'll give you all the details after Monday. Love everyone!

Yes..I'm still alive.

2007-05-06T20:44:00.000-07:00

Ok, so some of you may think that I have jumped off the face of the earth. Nope, still here...still kickin'. So many things have been going on here I don't even know where to start. Many birthdays have been celebrated many tests have been taken...many hearts I've been breakin'. Ok, not really...since I was rhyming..why not go with it right?

So school is going good. I'm currently making A's in both my classes but they are low A's and if I don't do good on my finals then I can basically just kiss those A's away.

I start Maymester on the 14th for Pscychology. I've already taken this class and made a B. But sinnnnnnnnce the nursing field is in such high demand, it's almost necessary that I apply in August with a 4.0 gpa. Talk about pressure!! I swear, if I get into this program I will probably kiss everyone I meet, and know for that matter. Pucker up babyyy!! Ow!

So it's late, I'm a bit loopy. Can you tell?

Ok, so invitations for Gavin's b-day are going out tomorrow. I actually had some quiet time today to address and stamp them. It's going to be a GREAT party. I'm actually thinking about trying to rent a margarita machine. I know, child's birthday..drinking? Hmmmm...I see it this way...us adults need to drink to deal with that many children! Ha ha! We'll see about the machine...otherwise it's BYOB.

Well, I better head to bed. Love all of you guys and miss you too!

Sad

2007-04-19T20:40:00.000-07:00

Today I'm sad. Here are the reasons why.

1. I'm sad because families are crying in Virginia tonite.

2. I'm sad because I found out that the day that I'm going to be maid of honor to my friend Deidra's wedding is on the exact same night that the Dave Matthews Band will be performing at Smirnoff. When have I missed a concert? I can't even remember.

3. I'm sad because I didn't say Happy Birthday to one of my best friends yesterday.

4. I'm sad because I feel that my life is nothing but studying and school stress.

5. I'm sad because we finally took Gavin's wubba (pacifier) away and now all of a sudden he's not momma's baby anymore.

6. I'm sad because I haven't exercised in over a week. 10 days to be exact. I can't find the motivation.

7. I'm sad that I'm having to write this ridiculous list that is somehow making me feel better.

8. I'm sad that I feel that I'm losing track of my friends.

9. I'm sad that I'm going to be going to school ALL summer.

10. I'm sad because my STUPID English professor has yet to send me my graded assignments, even after I've sent her two emails and left a lengthy message on her machine. I mean, what the hell is the problem?

11. I'm sad because Dina feels defeated. I really feel like I'm right there with you.

12. I'm sad because I feel like I just can't pick myself up right now. When will everything just calm down?

Hope this didn't depress you.

Our trip at the Zoo!

2007-03-30T11:50:00.000-07:00

Erik, Gavin and I went to the Dallas Zoo last Sunday and had a blast! This was Gavin's first trip to the zoo so it was definitely memorable. Here's some pics for your enjoyment!

Drained

2007-03-19T21:34:00.000-07:00

Did I mention that I CANNOT stand Algebra? Because I can't. I'm literally wondering why the heck I'm doing these stupid problems while I'm studying. I know for sure that I do not need to know this stuff now..am I truly going to need this when I become a nurse? Is this some kind of torture tactic that they make you go through to prepare you for the future? Because I'm not sure it it's working.

Dancing with the Stars is back on! I just love this show..who's with me?

Total Randomness (stealing this from Dina)

2007-03-16T20:49:00.000-07:00

Dina has inspired me to talk about all the random stuff that I've been thinking about here lately.

1. I miss cable. The storm on Tuesday totally messed with our cable and it's completly out. I called them two days ago and the soonest they can come and fix it is Sunday...Sunday of all days..I just don't get it. It's not like I live my life for television but it's nice to have it when you're bored and you can't sleep (like right now.)

2. I miss Dina. It wasn't the same without you there tonite at April's B-day dinner. I kept thinking that we were missing somebody tonite. And we were! April isn't getting here fast enough girlfriend. Are you going to be here for Teresa's birthday?

3. What am I going to be doing this weekend? I'm really not that sure. Supposedly, Simon and Sawyer are going to be staying the weekend over here but I have yet to see them. Simon's 11th birthday was in February and we have yet to celebrate it. I think the immediate family is going to get together and throw him a little party. What do I get an 11 year-old that he won't use once and forget about? Hmmmm.

4. You know I must be terribly bored to spurt out all this randomness at such a late hour. I truly dislike being bored. Who's with me? I suppose I could lay down and stare at the ceiling for a couple of hours but how fun does that sound? The internet is my only survival right now. And whoever knows me knows how I'm really not that much of a fan of blogging. I do it because I want to keep up with my friends. And I have to say that we've done a heck of a job stickin' together for this long. It's going to be two years 'til are ten year highschool reunion. Wow, I feel old. I shouldn't say that though because really..I'm not.

5. I'm really anxious to start nursing school. It seems like a never-ending road getting there. I found out that the last day for applying to El Centro for the Fall semester was February 28th. I mean who would put the last day of applying for next Fall in the middle of Spring semester. I mean come on. So it looks like the soonest of getting in will be next Spring. Ughhh. That's even if I get in. But if I don't I've made sure to have a backup plan.

6. Dogs barking at 11:00pm at night are annoying. I mean, what in the heck are they barking at anyways? Probably stupid teenage kids walking around.

7. I think I've wasted enough of your time with this. Sorry to all of those who have read my mindless blogging tonite. I have to say that it's pretty therapeutic and that it has taken some of the bordom away for about thirty minutes though.

Everyone, had a great night tonite. Hope you guys have a weekend full of fun and fullfillment! Love ya!

Everyone...it finally happened!

2007-03-12T12:35:00.000-07:00

Gavin went pee-pee in the potty for the first time today!!! Hallelujah!!!

I'm so so so excited I can't stand it! We had previously started his potty training about 4 or 5 months ago but I knew in my heart that he wasn't ready. But last week I decided that it was time. Erik and I bought him the cutest Spider Man and sports underwear and he seemed very excited about them. Well we started bright and early last Thursday but he kept wetting and dirtying his underwear. I was completly stressed out but I stayed persistent and very patient with him. Well this morning I was reading him a book on the potty and he went! I was so excited and I didn't want to say anything until he was finished. Then he looked at me with the biggest smile and I praised him like no other. I did the "pee-pee dance" and my dad came into the bathrom and did the dance with me..it was so cute! Afterwards he called his Me-maw and his Aunt Melanie and his daddy to share the good news. So now I'm sharing the good news with you guys! Yay!

Eat your heart out Van Gogh!!

2007-02-27T19:05:00.000-08:00

This is my sweetheart's creation. Isn't he cute? Erik and I bought him a paint-it-yourself piggy bank and he just had a grand ol' time! It feels like he was trying to do a Zorro-ish them with the large amount of dark paint over the piggy's face..lol. What do you think?

Oh what a night...

2007-02-11T20:02:00.000-08:00

So our anniversary was perfect! The meal was spectacular and everything went smoothly. I swear, if you haven't tried Maggianos..it's awesome! You don't know what you're missing! I had the lobster stuffed ravioli..and oH..mY..gOD...it was wonderful! After dinner I surprised to find out that Erik planned for my family to be at my favorite whole in the wall bar for some karaoke! I thought we were going to moviesss..but he tricked me!! I had a blast winning third place at the karaoke contest. Melanie won second!! This was out of ten people so I was very pleased with us. I sang "I would do anything for love" by Meatloaf. Then later I sand "Bohemian Rhapsody" by Queen and then after one of the judges stopped me and told me that if I had sang that song at the contest I would have won! Wow, did I feel great! Well all in all it was a fantastic night that I'll never forget. Thanks honey for making it happen!

2007-02-08T20:49:00.000-08:00

Happy Anniversary Honey!

I love you very much!

What a week.

2007-02-07T20:59:00.000-08:00

It's been quite a week for me over here. My English class started on Monday where I was suprised to find out that I needed to buy THREE books for this course. Can you believe that? Three books? Well I found them all at three different locations..but it took a lot of work and my professor was little to no help. Other than that I've still kept on my exercise regime. Right now I'm doing the elliptical for thirty minutes six days a week and I've been really trying to cut my portions down. I'm excited because weigh-in is tomorrow and I hope that I've lost. I've really been kickin' butt. Another thing I'm excited about is that mine and Erik's anniversary is Friday! We will have been together for six years! Can you believe it? So he's going to be taking me to my favorite Italian restaurant Maggiano's...and oh my gosh it's soo good! I won't be dieting that night needless to say. We're also going to the movies that night..(if we have time) and I have no clue what to go see...any suggestions? Well I hope everyone's having a great week and I'll let you know how our night went!

p.s. Thank you Dina and Katy for the sweet little Valentine's Day card..Gavin loved it!!

Life Lessons

2007-02-04T20:59:00.000-08:00

Never record the Superbowl on your DVR.

When the recording stops thirty minutes before the game ends...start it back up!

Never accidentally change the channel five minutes before the game is over and then when you change the channel back the winning team is already running the field.

-sorry honey.

-yay Colts!!

Back to it again.

2007-01-30T11:21:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I started back to my healthy lifestyle on January 2nd. As of today I have lost 9.6lbs and I'm feeling pretty good. I've been walking with Karen and doing the elliptical and both have been kicking my butt! But I think I'm going to start journaling on here my thoughts and feelings because a lot of what I'm eating is emotional and I've been thinking about starting a journal for awhile now. So mine will be public and hopefully it will show people they're not alone.

So today January 29, 2007.

Here it goes... Thoughts right now? Well, I can't escape the fact that my back pains are back. They come and go and I'm not sure if the exercising is causing the pain...but it sure is getting on my nerves. I always thought that when you exercised you should feel better...but I think you feel a lot worse before you begin to feel better. Any thoughts on this..please swing them my way. Another thought. Well I'm already anxious for my clothes to start fitting better. But I've tried my jeans on and I just can't tell a difference. Karen reminds me that you lose weight in all different areas like your legs, and arms....but why can't I just lose it in my waist?..I mean, come on already!!

So Karen and I made a really great healthy meal that I got out of my new cookbook. I got this cookbook at a thrift store for $4 (well Melanie bought it..but I snagged it.) So I think I'm going to start posting recipes on here for everyone's enjoyment.

Ok, hope everyone's having a great week!!

So...

2007-01-20T20:37:00.000-08:00

It's almost been a month since my last post. What's wrong with me?! I told Dina that I'm just not as interesting as everyone else to be able to blog every day. BUT I'm really going to try to post more often. I know that this is the best way to keep up with everyone and for them to keep up with me. So it's just been same ol' over here. I haven't started school yet so I'm actually kind of bored..and a little stress free. I start school in February..so I'll probably be posting more on here..just so I can vent. Well anyways, I found out that I only have two classes left before I can apply to nursing school. I'm super excited about that..because MAYBE if I get accepted I'll be able to start school in the Fall. But if I don't..there's still plenty of classes I can take to go towards a bachelor's degree. So I've basically got everything planned out. Anyways, I miss Erik. He's in Utah and he's been gone since Thursday. It hasn't been that long and I'm really to busy during the day to miss him...but it's at night when I'm wanting him here the most. I just get in trouble because I watch scary movies..but I never actually got scared when he was here. So I've had to lay off of the scary movies until he comes back. But I do pick him up at the airport tomorrow..so yay! Ok, well I better hit the hay...miss you guys!

And a Merry Christmas to You!!

2006-12-21T20:24:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm just getting on here to wish each and everyone of you a very Merry Christmas. I love you guys!!

Dina-PLEASE stay indoors! Promise? I hope you have a great Christmas and give Katybug big hugs from me, Erik, and Gavin..LOVE YOU!

Teresa-no stressing this holiday...ok??? I hope you get everything you want because you deserve it! Please stress to your family to have a very Merry Christmas and thanks for such a great Christmas party..LOVE YOU!!

Manda-if I had the money I would have spent it on a maid for you..so then your Christmas would definitely be stress free. Wow, what a to-do list! Tell Joe that we said "Hi!" aND I hope that your dessert is a success! LOVE YOU!!

April-what can I say that I haven't already told you at the Christmas party? Just know that I'm always here if you need me. Tell John and your sweet baby girl Merry Christmas from me! LOVE YOU!!

Jenny-Awwww..Jenny Jenny Jenny...me and you go together like peas and carrots :) Was just dying to say that. I hope you get everything you've ever wanted out of this new year...have a very Merry Christmas! LOVE YOU!!!

Billie-what a great friend and sister you are. I still can't get over that wonderful gift and I'll treasure it always. I hope you and your family have a wonderful Christmas and know that we miss you tons! LOVE YOU!!!!

Eat, Drink, and be Merry!!! Merry Christmas!!

I know...

2006-11-30T11:13:00.000-08:00

I haven't been on here in forever. Believe me, there have been several times that I've wanted to come on here and vent my heart out..but I just haven't had the strength. I'm exhausted. I'm just really exhausted. This is one of the busiest times in my life. Why, you ask? Well, I'm getting to the end of my school semester and my Anatomy teacher has squeezed 4 tests back to back, and not to mention 2 take home tests. I'm tired of Anatomy. To the point that I don't even want to become a nurse because I'm just sick of learning about the body. And can you believe I'm taking Anatomy 2 next semester? I just want to get it OVER. I'm telling myself that this is all going to pay off in the long run.

So Erik, Gavin, and I are going to get our XMAS pictures done this Sunday. I'm already expecting the rush because it's the weekend that everyone's going to get thier pics done too..just in time to send them out in Xmas cards. But I'm determined damnit. I'm going to get these done if my life depends on it..and its seeming that way thus far.

I am actually in a good mood today though. Manda, I'm wearing those booties that you got me for my birthday. It's freakin' freezing in my house, so I put on my booties and they're sooo warm, and comfy, and pretty....and pretty sounding (they have bells on the remember?) Gavin and Kenzie are having a kick out of them....I even turned on some Xmas music and started stomping around...Gavin and Kenzie were laughing with delight. Awww, kids are great.

Well anyways, I have to go study some more. New test on Saturday. I've been praying that we'll have a huge snow storm and then school will be closed on Saturday. Everyone pray with me!! Hope everyone's having a better week than me.

A BIG Thank You!!

2006-11-06T20:57:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for making me feel so special on my birthday. Also, thanks to all of the phone messages, e-cards, and to everyone who was at my birthday dinner. I had a great day and I'm very lucky to have each and every one of you in my life!!

Thanks Again!

Gavin patiently waiting for CANDY!

2006-10-31T12:45:00.000-08:00

Gavin's first pony ride!

2006-10-31T12:29:00.000-08:00

Gavin And Kenzie

2006-10-31T12:20:00.000-08:00

They are about to go to a Halloween Carnival!

Y'all...I want a sewing machine.

2006-10-28T14:12:00.000-07:00

I really do. Do you know that I actually "window" shop for sewing machines? Why do they have to be so darn expensive? I think the cheapest one I've found is for $75 at Walmart. But this is my dilema. I don't think I'm ready to spend that kind of money on something I'm not sure I'd enjoy doing. Yeah, it sounds great..I would love to make my own pillows and stuff like that. But would it be more frustrating than enjoyable? Why can't they have sewing machines you can test drive for a little bit? To see if you actually enjoy doing it. *Sigh*. These things I wonder.

Oh, I also wanted to say Happy Birthday to one of my very best friends, Manda!! I cannot wait to see you tonite! I really hope you love the gift Erik and I got you. We were torn over many things, and since you didn't give us any hints..you'll just have to like it and that be that! :P

And another thing, I made another A on my anatomy test. So so far that's two high A's and one B-(damn you chemistry chapter.) So I celebrated by buying me a new purse at Target. I got it on clearance for $5 and it's super-duper cute. Y'all will get to see it tonite. B

But anyways, hope everyone is having a safe weekend and I can't wait to see you guys tonite! (definitely will miss you Dina.)

2006-10-26T11:32:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Melanie!!!

I love you very much!!!

Peace and Quiet

2006-10-25T10:47:00.000-07:00

My favorite time of the day you ask? Well it's when both babies are down for their nap and then I FINALLY have peace and quiet. It's amazing how difficult it is to take care of two kids during the day. Especially since Gavin has turned into a bully and I'm having to discipline him every other minute. *Sigh*. But on to a not so stressful subject. Birthdays. I love birthdays. I love celebrating them and I love shopping for birthday gifts. Two birthdays are coming up (well three if you include me.) My older sister Melanie..and one of my best friends Manda. They both happen to be this week so it will be a busy but fun one for me. Can you guys please tell me what you would like for your b-day? Melanie has given me some hints..but I haven't heard anything from Manda :)

Well, I better go study. Can't wait to see you guys this week! (AND Dina...can't wait to see you in two more weeks!)

I LOVE YOU MANDA!!!

2006-10-17T10:47:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to thank you Manda for putting a comment option and a title option for my posts!!! You are the greatest! I know that must have taken you some time and I really appreciate it! You are the bomb..and you can take over my blog anytime!!

Love you!

And thanks for all the comments on my new layout. It took me awhile to figure things out but I'm finally making it my own!! Wooo hooo!!

The first step to taking over the world...

2006-10-16T20:27:00.000-07:00

is taking over Stacy's blog. :)

This is your friendly blog-guru, Manda, testing out Stacy's blog to see if stuff's working correctly. ♥ ya! :D

Potty Training Nightmare!

2006-10-09T14:10:00.000-07:00

Ok, so today is officially day two of Gavin's potty training. Well, I hate to say it..but I'm ready to give up. He has yet to tee-tee in the potty BUT we have come a long way. First, Gavin was afraid of the potty..."No Noooo Nooooooo!!" he would yell. But now we're at the point where he'll let me read him a book on the potty...but still NO tee-tee! I thought it would help for him to see his cousin Sawyer go tee-tee...but it hasn't. And I thought that his training pants would keep some of the tee-tee in...but he wet his bed after his nap today. And I knew he had to potty really bad before his nap..so I put him on the potty before hand...but still...no TEE-TEE. I'm ready for any help or tips that come my way! Please!!!

On another note we went to a really cook Pumpkin Patch yesterday in Flower Mound. It was free parking and free to get in. There were also free bouncy houses,hay-ride and a petting zoo. We had a great time! The only thing that cost were drinks/food BUT they were really reasonable. It was so much fun to go out in the pumpkin patch and pick our own pumpkin. I'll put some pics up here so you can see the great time we had!

2006-10-07T12:27:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DINA!!

We Miss You!!!

Oh my God!

2006-09-30T12:44:00.000-07:00

I made a 94 on my anatomy/lab test!!! Woooo hooo! I'm just very happy because I've been studying my life away!!!!!!! Yay, one down..eight more to go!

So it happened...

2006-09-28T08:35:00.000-07:00

We finally got Gavin a haircut. I know a lot of you didn't want us to get his curls cut off but it was just getting toooooo long. And it's not like their not going to come back...this was his fourth haircut..so we're positive he'll have curls by Christmas. Just thought I'd share. Hope everyone is having a great week!

After

2006-09-28T08:29:00.000-07:00

Before

2006-09-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

catchin' up

2006-09-17T21:24:00.000-07:00

So Kenzie's birthday was something else to say the least. Ok, Karen reserved this really big room that accomodates at least 30 people at this really good mexican restaurant for Kenzie's first birthday. So Karen and I go to the restaurant an hour early (with cake and balloons in tow) to start the decorating process. Well anyways, we wait for a couple of minutes because supposedly they were "cleaning" the room for us. Well finally they led us to this room that was not even half the size of the "big room"..and we were like "what the hell?" And then it happened...and I don't think I've ever seen this person before. But I saw the rath of Karen. She went from 0 to 100 in about 5 seconds. I think she was most angry because she had reserved it two weeks in advance and then talked to the manager the night before to make sure that everything was settled. Well needless to say she gave the manager HELL...and when I say hell she was about a curse word away from them calling the police on her. So I finally was able to calm her down and the manager led me around the restaurant to see what was suitable for the party and they eventually sectioned off a pretty good section. But the worst part of all of this...is that the people who were decorating the room for their bridal shower didn't even show up until we were leaving Kenzie's party (which was about 3 and a half hours later.) So that room wasn't even being used that WHOLE time! So then Karen proceeded to blow another gasqet and proceeded to cry and to tell the night manager about all that had happened to her. Well get this. She had told the night manager (which is a woman) that Santos was the man that she made the reservation with two weeks prior and the man that she talked to the night before. Well when she came in that day the day manager was the one she was screaming at...and she's like "Where is Santos????????!!.....I want to talk to Santos????!!!!!" And he was like...Santos is not here. Well the night manager (the lady) told her that the man she was talking to WAS Santos! Can you believe that??! Well Karen is calling corporate tomorrow to air her grievances. But the party actually went pretty well. Kenize got a lot of great things and we had a couple of pitchers of margaritas so we were fine. I just had to tell that story...oh my gosh it was just awful. Thanks for everyone who was there to celebrate her precious little birthday.

I'm dying a slow death.

2006-09-11T20:35:00.000-07:00

School is killing me! My freakin' classes are hard this year. Well Philosophy isn't..but Anatomy/Physiology is kickin' my ass. I don't think I've ever studied this much in my life. I'm putting so much stress on myself because I HAVE to get an A in this class (basically if I want to get into nursing school) and it's going to take everything in me to do it. So I'm counting the days 'til this semester is over (which is around Christmas) so oddly enough I'm counting the days until Christmas!

So Kenzie turns 1 tomorrow. Awww little K-chub. That's what Erik and I call her...it fits her perfectly. I can't believe she's already 1. How did that year pass me that fast? I have no clue. So we're not really doing anything for her birthday tomorrow. Karen says that we'll celebrate it on Saturday (her birthday party) and that's enough for her..lol. We're doing a cool thing this year and not have her birthday party at the house..but at this REALLY good mexican restaurant. They have an HUGE room that Karen reserved and we're going to get there early to decorate and it's just going to be PERFECT. And the best thing...no clean up! Wooohoo!

So Gavin is doing good. He's talking more and more everyday. He's sooo cute. He learned how to say that daddy's at work...of course it sounds like "da-GA werk". And he finally said I love you back to me today...but it sounds like "e-lubu"..no one could probably understand it but me...awww..he's so cute.

Well that's about all that's going on right now...I hope all of you are having a good week!

Sigh

2006-08-31T20:46:00.000-07:00

One of my very best friends is getting married tomorrow. It just makes me feel all warm inside because so many memories just flood into my mind. I remember her being a short/shy blonde haired girl who could barely say two words to me...and now...YEARS later..we're still friends. Ok, so I felt this way when Dina got married..(remember me? crying through the whole ceremony?). Thank your lucky stars that I wont be there tomorrow...boy would the floods gates break! Ohhhh I love you Teresa sooo much!!! I just hope you have to most perfect day tomorrow! You are going to be a Mrs....can you believe that? Well I want to hear every little detail about tomorrow as soon as you can! Tell Alex I love him too...and give Gabby a big hug from me! Teresa...if I was there you know I would give you the "talk". But I can't. I just want you to know that if you ever need me..that I am here for you. Ohhhhh *big big big big hugs*
Have a beautiful day tomorrow!!

I love him.

2006-08-21T11:39:00.000-07:00

I love Dave Matthews everyone. I'm sure you know this by now. But I really do love him. The concert on Saturday kicked ass! Man it was sooooo good! I was able to experience it with Erik, Karen, Jon, and Melanie...it's been a long while since we've all seen Dave together. It was so awesome! Talk about being tired afterwards. I spent 3hrs dancing my ass off.

So God has blessed me today. As you know Erik has been looking for a job for awhile now and we've been getting behind on our car payments, which has really been stressing me out. So yesterday Erik and I were going through the Sunday paper want ads and I found an ad stating that they were needing people for a research survey and that they would pay $300 for two days. Ok, so I go onto the website to see if they are legit..and they are! My mom has actually gone to a couple of their surveys once before. So anyways, I register our names into their website and they immediately call Erik the next morning. And then I called them and they entered me into the survey as well! That's $600 for two days..woo hoo! I had intentionally wanted to have a garage sale at my house to raise some money up for my car....but now I don't have too! Yay! Thank you God!

On another good note I have officially lost 26lbs. I have been maintaining for most of the summer but then was able to get off a couple more pounds here recently. I'm hoping to be at least 35lbs lighter by my birthday...which is definitely reasonable.

Ok, well I hope y'all are all having a great Monday!

Please Exercise Gods!!!

2006-08-17T13:10:00.000-07:00

Take this pain away!!! If you saw me now you would think to yourself.."Why is Stacy walking with a limp?" It's because I'm in pain...that's why! Ok, I've been really stepping it up a notch when it comes to my exercising. See I'm in a contest with a group of 5 girls scattered around the U.S. We all met on SparkPeople and we all came up with this great idea to have our own version of the Biggest Loser. Whoever loses ten pounds first wins a $25 gift card to your favorite place to shop. So considering I'm broke as hell I really want to win this card. Well I've been doing cardio for awhile now and I decided that it was time to add on some strength training. So I printed out the exercises that SparkPeople assigned to me and I did one each just as it told me to do so. So I'm feeling really good about all of this until the next day!! My quads and my ass are killing me! I feel like I can only walk if I have crutches...it's that bad. So it's been two days since I did this and I'm still in tremendous pain. How do people keep on doing strength exercises? I vowed today that I'll never do forward lunges or squats again!!!! "Owww, my ass"

I haven't posted in forever!

2006-08-15T20:17:00.000-07:00

OH my God..I haven't posted in forever. What's the matter with me? You know what it was? I started a new myspace account and I became a myspace snob and forgot all about my blogger blog over here. I suck.
So then a lightening bolt hit me! (well actually it was Teresa and Manda). And they told me to put on my myspace blog that I have a blog here..and that this is where I update my life from time to time. So I did! Great idea you guys!

So life has been pretty good over here. I finished summer II last week and I found out today that I made an A in my class! And it was a well deserved A because it was toughhhh. Oh my gosh it was like taking a freakin' English class! But I got through it!

Other than that I am still on my healthy lifestyle. WOW. Yeah I know...it's been since January. I've still kept the same weight..I've been in the terrible habit of letting myself gain some..and then losing that weight the next week. Basically I have been maintaining.....but now I've been back on the ball for the past couple of weeks. Working out and staying within my calories..go me!

So we I had an awesome time and Teresa's bachelorette party last weekend. Can you say drunktify? Because that's what I was for about a whole second. And Teresa too! "There's an oh shit grip?...OHHHHHhhhh shit!" That's freakin' priceless...and I just love hanging out with you guys. And I'm going to miss you Dina terribly. How am I not going to cry on Friday?
*sigh*.

Well guys, I'm off to bed. Hope you're having a pleasurable week ;)

Ok...so I finally

2006-07-05T13:29:00.001-07:00

enrolled for the Fall semester! Yay! So relieved and happy and did I say relieved? I got all the classes I needed and I wanted. AND I'm actually going to take a class during Summer II (which starts next Monday.) That class will be intro to theater. I normally wouldn't have to take this class but I dropped out of it when I was going to Richland (this is also the time where I quit going to classes so I could go hang out with Erik in Killeen.) Well anyways, dropping out of the class has severly brought down my GPA and I can't afford for it to be low. If all works well I'll be up to 3.8 or 3.9 by the end of the spring semester. Then I'll be ready to put my applications in to nursing school. The two classes I'm taking during the Fall are Anatomy and Philosophy. I need to get A's on those and then get an A in college Algebra during the Spring and I should have my GPA where I need it. I'm starting to get really excited about this. It's like I've been going to school for sooooo long and it's finally getting down to where I can actually do clinical rotation and stuff...FUN! Well, just thought I would express my excitement! Have a great week everyone!

Yeah...I know

2006-06-12T11:44:00.000-07:00

So I haven't blogged in awhile...yeah..I know. A lot of things have been going on here and well...I just haven't found time to blog them down. Well as you know Gavin turned 2 last Friday. We had a two day celebration and he made out like a bandit. I'm so thankful to all of you guys who were there for the celebration! He started his Mother's Day Out program last Tuesday. So he still kicks up a fuss when we leave him but his teacher's say that he does do good during the day. He even decorated his very first t-shirt on Thursday...it was so cute..it was a jungle theme and he wore it on his birthday..cute cute cute. I'm starting to really love this mother's day out thing. He gets to do so many cool things and I get to do errands and EVEN go to the $1 movie with Erik last Tuesday (we haven't gotten to do anything like that in a LONGGG time.)

Ok, so April had her baby yesterday and I'm super excited to meet her!! Her name is Elizabeth but they're going to call her Lizzie for short...isn't that the cutest? Also, Jess graduated from high school...and I can't believe it! I remember when she was "puppy" and she sounded like a munchkin...awwww..memorrriiieeess. Congrats Jess! Also, Congratulations to Teresa, Alex, and Kari on closing their new home last week. I can't wait to see it and I'm so happy for you guys!

So anyways, I'm going to register for my classes tomorrow and I'm really nervous about it. I'm not really sure why but I think it's because I haven't been back to school for a whole year. Yeah, I didn't even think it was that long. BUT I have a reason for not going last semester. I had all my classes picked out and everything perfect until I lost my driver's license. I mean it was lost...like I had to go to the DPS and get a new one lost. I couldn't get it in time to register and they won't let you register without a picture I.D. and that's the only one I had. But anyways, I am excited to be starting back up again. If I am right I have three classes left until I start my nursing program and either El Centro or Brookhaven. Man I can't wait. I'm going to need volunteers to let me do shots and cathiters..ha ha.

Well anyways, that's about all that's going on right now. Oh except I have Simon and Sawyer for the WHOLE week this week and I'm already tired!! No, I'm happy they're here :)

Have a great week everybody!

It's a sad sad day in T.V. land today

2006-05-11T11:44:00.000-07:00

I hate Ryan Seacrest!!!! What an asshole, the way he kicked off Chris last night. I swear, if it wasn't for Taylor I would give up on American Idol completly. Ryan Seacrest..if you are reading this...you are a jerk and I hate you!

To Chris Daughtrey..if you're reading this...I love you..errr (wait Erik's reading this)...I like you a lot. You brought something to American Idol that no one has ever brought before.......the fact that you didn't compromise who you are just for the fat guy with all the dough. I will indeed buy your c.d. when it comes out and I will see you on tour!!!

To the fat guy with all of the dough. You should have rigged this season buddy.

He's on his way!

2006-05-10T11:40:00.000-07:00

I am soooo excited right now. I have officially found a Mother's Day Out program for Gavin! It starts the first week of June and ends in the middle of July. If Erik and I agree on it...he'll be going every Tuesday and Thursday/9:30-2:30. I read the little syllabus they have for his age and he's going to get to do so many fun things. He'll get to jump in a bouncey house, and go on a scavenger hunt, and he'll even make his own little tye dyed shirt with his hand prints on it...ewwwwwwwwWWWW..I am so excited! Just had to share.

In other news I weighed in today and have lost 27lbs. I feel really good and just recently Karen bought an elliptical trainer so I'm excited to be adding that to my exercise routine. Yay! Just having a really good day today.

I hope all of you have a great Mother's Day for all of you mamma's out there!

Wannahockaloogy :)

2006-05-04T11:55:00.000-07:00

Just felt like saying that..he he he. I was just thinking..is my life really that boring that I can't even blog regularly? I keep thinking of things to blog about..but when I start to blog..they don't seem at all interesting..hmmmm. I'm missing Billie and the kids right now. If you're reading this "Hi Billie!!" I can't wait to see your new house and we can't wait to see you! Hmmm..who else am I missing? I'm missing Erik..he's at work right now..and I'm missing him. I'm also missing my girls. We need to have another slumber party or something..or maybe a margarita/slumber party night?? hmmm??

So Gavin's birthday is coming up. We're thinking about having a picnic thingy at Sandy Lake park. They have little rides and face paintings and stuff like that. This is not definite...but and idea. I can't believe Gavin is going to be two. *sigh*.

Well I guess that's about all that I have to blog about right now. Oh! I'm officially 25lbs. lighter..pretty excited...but not yet ready to go bathing suit shopping if you know what I mean..lol.

Hope everyone's having a great week!

Back from the dead!

2006-04-19T12:03:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Yeah, I haven't posted for awhile and I'm sorry. With Easter and having a hellish time trying to get our family portrait done..I've kinda been busy. So Erik, Gavin and I went to Kiddie Kandids to get our Easter pics done..and it was AWFUL. After waiting an hour for our turn Gavin decided that he was going to have a crying fit to the point that he was about to vomit. I was so sad...we all looked so good. It just wasn't meant to happen I guess. In other news, Dina threw a great Easter egg coloring party and we had an absolute blast! Teresa and Alex got Gavin the most adorable little blue animal and furry blue bunny ears (they were a hit on Easter morning.) Thanks you guys. Also! Teresa turned the big 2-5! Happy Birthday girlie...when are we having a birthday dinner for you? Also Gavin officially has an appt. with an ENT specialist to see how his tongue-tied situation. I'm really nervous about it because I know the inevitable will be that he'll have to go under anesthesia to get his tongue clipped "Ouch!" I'll let you guys know more after his appt. And so in case you're wondering.. I am still losing weight! Yay! I guess everyone else has fell off the wagon but I'm here still trying to go strong. As of today I have lost 23.8lbs. I've started walking around the neighborhood which I've really enjoyed. Erik and I are looking into getting an apartment...so we're apartment hunting I guess you should say. If any of you guys know of an apartment complex that will work with your credit let me know.

Ok guys, I hope all of you are having a great week!

Ok so...

2006-03-28T12:01:00.000-08:00

we didn't weigh-in this week. Some of you may have already noticed that. Here's the thing...we decided that we would start weighing in back on Monday's again. We switched from having it on Friday because we were doing a hell of a lot better on the weekends knowing that we had weigh-in on Mondays..so we switched. Erik and I did weigh-in yesterday..but decided that we wouldn't post it up because we gained..and we're losers..lol. No really, we did really bad this weekend because of Karen's birthday and all the eating and drinking took a toll on our results. So we're coming back strong and hope that we have a significant weight loss on Monday's weigh-in.

So Karen's party was a blast! Thanks to all of you who came..you really did make Karen's birthday extra special! I freakin' loved the karaoke party...I'm even surprised that DINA actually sang a song...BY HERSELF! Woohoo! You go girl!

So it's today and I'm sooo tired. We had a hell of a night last night. It started off that Gavin woke up right before Erik and I went to bed. So he whined and cried until we let him in the bed with us. Which really wasn't so bad because he fell asleep rather quickly. So Erik put him back into his crib and everything was mellow..right? WRONG! Joe kept going in and out of the house slamming the door which was waking Gavin up..and having us start at square one again. SO FINALLY, Gavin went back to sleep...Erik and I fell asleep...and THEN...Erik wakes up me up frantic asking me if I smell smoke. Ok, so I'm half dazed here..but I definitely smell smoke. We both get up and search the house at 2am mind you, and we find nothing. And then it dawns on me...I bet Joe is smoking in his room and the smoke is coming through the vents into our room. I precede to knock on his door (and I know he's awake because I can hear him talking.) He doesn't answer the door! Asshole. Finally I picked up the phone and he's having a conversation with Janna's answering machine and I tell him to quit smoking or I will kick his ass....(and this is all on Janna's machine..priceless.) We finally fall asleep after all is said and done. But Gavin and I didn't wake up until 11:15am. and our whole schedule is off...it sucks. Woo! Yeah, so that's how my day is going.

I hope everyone's day is going better!

9th Weigh-in

2006-03-17T11:15:00.000-08:00

3/17/06 Weigh-in

1st Place-Stacy/lost 2 lbs. this week/22.4 lbs. total/6.68% lost!

2nd Place-Erik/lost 1 lb. this week/16.6 lbs. total/5.06% lost!

3rd Place-Melanie/+2.8 lbs. this week/7.7 lbs total/2.93% lost!

Have a great weekend everybody!

EXHAUSTED!

2006-03-15T19:14:00.000-08:00

I am sooo freakin' exhausted right now. It's about 9p.m. and I'm just needing to vent. I honestly know how it feels to have three kids. Here's the thing...Simon (my nephew) has been here since Friday..add him on to Kenzie and Gavin...and it's been mayhem! It's like no matter what..they couldn't get in sync. I feel like all I've been doing is feeding kids!! They don't all eat at the same time..and it's like once I get Gavin fed Kenzie's cryin' or Simon's wanting a snack. I just want to give props out there to all you momma's who have more than one child, I honestly don't know how you do it!

So some of you may know that I had an AWFUL habit of biting my nails to the nub..I never ever grew them long. Wellllll, this will be my third week of quitting the habit! (wow, I feel like I've quit smoking or something.) Anyways, it's a real big deal to me and I'm excited. I think I'll reward myself with a professional manicure or something..go me!

I've also been improving more each day on my healthier lifestyle and I'm feeling pretty good. You know when you think about it...there's really no quick fix to weight loss. Yeah, you quit eating carbs for a month and drop 20lbs...but what happens? You go crazy! And then you realize you have a peanut butter sandwich in each hand and your goin' at it! (yes, this is coming from experience.) But in reality everyone knows how to lose weight and keep it off...you expend more calories than you're taking in. But it's HARD...and it's SLOW...and before you know it..you've given up and your draggin' your feet in the dirt. I just really needed to express how hard it really has been. I mean, what I'm having to do is completly change my life. I've had some slip ups and I have actually really thought about how easy it would be to go back to my old self. But I can't. I am going to beat this..and live to tell about it! Thanks for everyone's support...I truly love you guys from the bottom of my heart!

Hope everyone is having a really good week :)

We did it!

2006-03-10T09:42:00.001-08:00

Melanie, Erik and I are happy to announce that we have finally made it to our 2nd month mark and we are soaring!! Not only did we lose weight but we feel great and we feel a huge sense of accomplishment. I'm very proud of Melanie, she has met her 10lb. weight loss goal and then some! Erik has been taking his weight off steadily and is now wearing some of his "skinny" jeans! And for me I have made it past 20lbs. and I feel like dancin'!! Here is this week's weigh-in results!

3/10/06 8th Weigh-in

1st Place-Stacy/lost .6lbs this week/20.4lbs total/6.08% lost!

2nd Place-Erik/lost .6lbs this week/15.6lbs total/4.75% lost!

3rd Place-Melanie/lost 1.6lbs this week/10.5lbs total/4% lost!

Here's to a great 3rd month!!!!!

Just us two.

2006-03-03T10:44:00.000-08:00

So Erik and I were the only ones you weighed in this morning. Melanie had an excuse though, considering she was in the car this morning on her way with Jon to Louisianna for Jon's brother's wedding. I don't know what happened to Karen, and well my mom...she hasn't really been showing her face around here lately. So here are the results.

7th Weigh-In

1st Place-Stacy/lost 1.6lbs this week/19.8 lbs total/5.91% lost! (oh my gosh, I’m almost at 20lbs!)

2nd Place-Erik/+.2lbs this week/15lbs total/4.57% lost!

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Sixth Weigh-in

2006-02-24T10:51:00.000-08:00

2/24/06 Sixth Weigh-in

1st Place- Stacy/lost 2lbs. this week/18.2 lbs total/5.43% lost!

2nd Place- Erik/lost 1.8lbs this week/15.2lbs total/4.63% lost!

3rd Place- Melanie/lost 1.3lbs this week/8.9lbs total/3.39% lost!

4th Place- Karen/+5.8lbs this week/1.8lbs total/.63% lost!

Personally, this was a tough week for me. Even though I did my exercises, I dreaded them. That's normally not the case because I've been enjoying my exercises here lately. I think it has to do with the weather. It's been way too cold to take Gavin out walking so I've just been stuck doing video tapes this week. In the past, this is probably when I would have given up my exercise routine. I would have stopped exercising..and then felt so guilty about it that I would endulge in all the fattiest foods I could find. But I'm not going to do that this time. Even though it was a tough week, I was able to lose 2lbs. So my body knows that something different is going on...and I'm actually feeling stronger and having a lot more energy. In other words, we're all going to have those times where we're wanting to give up...where we think what's the use. But you will get over it..you WILL get over it. I give big props to everyone who's losing weight and adapting a healthier lifestyle. And for those you are just starting out, or have just given up...you CAN do this...DON'T GIVE UP!!!

Nothin' much to report.

2006-02-22T11:09:00.000-08:00

I'm having a blah day today. I don't know if it's the weather or what..but I just can't get into a good mood. I hate days like these. On a plus note I'm excited because I'm still losing weight. I'll post the update on Friday. Other than that I don't have much to say...(you probably can tell by my babbling.) I hope that everyone is having a good week at least. Everyone say a little prayer that Dina and Katy have a safe trip to Florida. Ok, bye!

p.s. If you haven't checked out Alanis Morrissette's Jagged Little Pill acoustic version...it's AWESOME. Erik got it for me for Valentine's day and I can't quit listening to it...brings back some major high school memories.

Fifth Weigh-In

2006-02-17T10:59:00.000-08:00

2/17/06 Fifth Weigh-in

1st place-Stacy/lost 1.2lbs this week/16.2lbs total/4.83% lost!

2nd place-Erik/lost .6lbs this week/13.4lbs total/4.08% lost!

3rd place-Melanie/+.4lbs this week/7.6lbs total/2.89% lost!

4th place-Karen/lost 3.2lbs this week/7.6lbs total/2.66% lost!

Good job this week!!!

Happy Valentine's Day Everybody!

2006-02-14T11:04:00.000-08:00

I hope everyone is having a good Valentine's Day so far. Mine has started out great. Erik and I gave Gavin some toys this morning and he's spent the whole morning pushing his lawn mower everywhere he went. Unfortunately Erik will not be getting off work early today :( So we'll be spending Valentine's Day at 10:30p.m. tonite. I guess I'm just being selfish because I want to spend this day with him...but I know that he's out there earning much needed money..so I will try to get over this rather quickly. In other news, if any one is wondering why I haven't posted the fifth weigh-in results here is the reason why. My mom, Melanie, Karen and I decided that we need to do weigh-ins on Friday morning from now on. I know this sounds bad....but the weekends are the worse for us..and we just can't bring ourselves to weigh-in on Monday mornings anymore.

Anyways, Karen is having to go to court and see Jason on Thursday for child support and visitation. She's EXTREMLY nervous about it..so everyone say a little prayer that everything goes the way she needs it to go.

Also, cross your fingers for Teresa...she's wanting to buy her first new home and she's hoping that everything goes through well. Good Luck Teresa!

Read here on Friday for the Biggest Loser results!!!

The First Month Is Finally Over!!

2006-02-06T10:51:00.000-08:00

Hey everybody. The first month of our Biggest Loser contest is over! Woo hoo! And guess who's in the lead! Me! I'm not meaning to gloat or anything..but I've kicked some ass this month! Ok, but on a serious note though....it's been tough. Actually I think it has gotten easier now...but the first two weeks were excruciating. I can see that now it's starting to form into more of a life-style change..and I'm starting to really feel the results. I've been mixing up work-outs so that I won't get bored. I do The Biggest Loser DVD, a stair stepping DVD, or I go to the walking trails with Gavin in the stroller and walk a mile. The key to my success is that I don't deprive myself of anything. If I want something I'll eat it..but if it's possible to find a healthier version...I'll pick that one over the fatty version. I also have been watching my portion sizes and I haven't been getting up for seconds either. All in all I feel great! I owe it all to my great support team, the members of this contest and my friends. I love you guys!

2/6/06 Fourth Weigh-in

1st Place-Stacy/lost 2.2lbs. this week/15lbs total/4.47% lost!

2nd Place-Erik/lost .4lbs this week/12.8lbs total/3.90% lost!

3rd Place-Melanie/.1 lbs this week/8lbs total/3.04% lost!

4th Place-Karen/+2lbs this week/4.4lbs total/1.54%

5th Place- My mom forgot to weigh-in this morning, so I will update this tomorrow morning.

I hope everyone is ready to kick it into high gear this month! A lot can happen in one month....

Chuck E. Cheese and 3rd Weigh-In

2006-01-30T09:04:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone!
Hope everybody had a good weekend. I had a pretty good weekend. We took Gavin to Chuck E. Cheese for the very first time and he had a blast! I just can't believe how much he has grown up. I was expecting him to burst into tears when Chuck E. Cheese came up to see him...but he didn't! He was smiling ear to ear and he even gave Chuck E. high-fives! We all had a great time, and I'm so glad Dina and Katy where able to join us. She was just sooooo cute riding on the Teletubby ride! I was really please to see that they had a toddler section marked off. It was perfect for Katy and Gavin. They had the perfect rides and games just for their age. Needless to say it was a great evening. I hope next time Teresa and Gabby can join us!

So today was our 3rd weigh-in, and like so many times we've all tried to lose weight we encounter some flubs here and there. Some of us have had some highs this week..and some of us have had some lows. I just want to say to my team that we're dealing with a lifestyle change and it's very very hard sometimes. Don't give up!

1/30/06 Weigh-in
1st Place-Stacy/lost 1.4lbs this week/12.8lbs total/3.82% lost!

2nd Place-Erik/lost .4lbs this week/12.4lbs total/3.78% lost!

3rd Place-Melanie/lost .8lbs this week/7.9lbs total/3% lost!

4th Place-Karen/gained 3.2lbs this week/6.4lbs lost total/2.24% lost!

5th Place-Mom/gained 4.2lbs this week/.6lbs lost total/.18% lost!

I am VERY excited that I am 1st place this week! I worked hard, made a couple of mistakes..but didn't let it bring me down. Congratulations on those of you who lost this week, and for those who didn't...keep trying..don't let it bring you down!!

Brown rice.

2006-01-25T11:40:00.000-08:00

Did you know that brown rice has 50 less calories than regular white rice? And loads more fiber! So my mom went to the store last week and brought home a bag of brown rice. I was very skeptical to say the least. I remember when I was a kid trying it and hating it...so I wasn't sure if I was going to have the same feelings. Anyways, I followed the package directions and it does take a significantly longer time to cook than white rice. The meal for that night was honey glazed salmon fillets upon a bed of brown rice with a side of boiled veggies. To sum it up in one word....DELICIOUS! I am now a brown rice fan and I am recommending it to all of you new dieters. My dad actually said he liked the brown rice better than the white rice! I couldn't believe my ears!

Erik and I have joined the Discovery Health Channel Body Challenge. They have loads of great information and you can keep up with your weight loss journey by tracking your progress daily. You can also make out your own meal plan and exercise schedule. Check it out! http://health.discovery.com/convergence/bodychallenge2006/bodychallenge2006.html?clik=netmain_feat1

I am very excited that some of my friends are jumping on the "healthier lifestyle" band wagon!! I wish everyone luck and a healthier you!

The most exhausting weekend ever.

2006-01-23T09:53:00.000-08:00

Where do I begin? I'm so tired I can't even think straight. To sum it up in a few words Gavin and I have been extremly ill for the past three days. Poor Gavin, he couldn't keep nothing down..not even ice chips...he finally had to go to his doctor where they said he had a upper respitory infection....but wouldn't a virus keep him from keeping anything down? *shrugs* I actually caught what he had and Erik had to spend a day and a half taking care of us. But on a lighter note we were much better yesterday and even better today. But my body is still achy and tired from being sick. Erik could barely get out of bed today because he's exhausted as well. I hope this week starts to look up for us.

The second week results of our contest turned out great...we're all super excited by our results.

1/23/06 Second Weigh-in

1st Place-Erik/lost 4.8lbs this week/12lbs total/3.66% lost!

2nd Place-Stacy/lost 3.4lbs this week/11.4lbs total/3.40% lost!

3rd Place-Karen/lost 1.2lbs this week/9.6lbs total/3.37% lost!

4th Place-Melanie/lost 1.6lbs this week/7.1lbs total/2.70% lost!

5th Place-Mom/lost 4.8lbs this week/4.8lbs total/1.52% lost!

I am sooo proud of us. So far we have all totaled 44.9lbs lost!

1st Weigh-In

2006-01-16T15:50:00.000-08:00

So this first week has ended with much success!

1st place- Karen/lost 8.4lbs./totals 2.94% lost (go Karen!)

2nd place-Stacy/lost 8 lbs/totals 2.38% lost (yay me!)

3rd place-Erik/lost 7.2lbs/totals 2.19% lost (good going honey!)

4th place-Melanie/lost 5.5lbs/totals 2.09% lost (way to go!)

5th place-Mom/lost 0 lbs./totals 0% lost (you'll get there!)

I am proud of each and everyone of you. We all worked hard and we did it together! We all deserve a pat on the back!!!

The Biggest Loser (family version)

2006-01-13T11:44:00.000-08:00

My family and I have decided that we all need to lose weight. So Melanie and I concocted (sp?) our own little version of The Biggest Loser in and out of waiting for our turn to bowl. Yeah Melanie, Jon, and Erik and I went bowling last weekend..we had a lot of fun even though we got the most jacked up lane and had to have assistance from some incompentant guy who worked there. Anyways, if you have ever seen The Biggest Loser on t.v. you know what I'm talking about. But if you haven't...here's how our family version goes. The contestants (Me, Melanie, Erik, Karen, and my mom) try to lose as much weight as possible. We weigh-in weekly and our weight loss will be configured to most percent lost. Anyways, it's a five month contest where we have to pay $30 dollars at the beginning of each month. The person who loses the most weight will get $550 and the second place winner will recieve $200. So far we have all stayed on track and it's already getting competitive! Our first weigh-in will be Monday morning where I will announce who's in first place, second place and so on. So this blog will kinda be my blog and weight blog.

I also want to say Congratulations to Manda and Joe's engagement. I am soooo thrilled for you guys I can't even tell you!

And Billie I finally finished your purse!! We will be sending it shortly with some other things and some pics.

And everyone please say a little prayer for Jon's dad. He had back surgery and he's having some complications right now. Apparently there was a mishap and now his dad does not have any feeling in his legs or feet whatsoever. Jon will be going back to Louisiana tonite to help his family with arrangements for a ramp to be added onto his house and just to be there for support. Please pray for them during this time.

I'll update soon. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Depressed and Frustrated

2006-01-04T11:00:00.000-08:00

*Sigh* I am so depressed and frustrated right now. This is the thing, right now it's time to register for Spring '06 classes. I've been working hard figuring out what classes I still need for my major..and exactly what classes I was going to take this semester. Well I finally figured out what I was going to take and I had the car all day yesterday to go to the college and register. Well the depressing and frustrating part of all of this is that I cannot find my driver's license. At first I thought it was no big deal, but then I decided to call the school to ask them what else I could bring instead of my driver's license and the girl was like "any photo I.D. like a school I.D. or a passport." And I'm like I don't have any of those things. At least the girl was real nice that I talked too. But where in the hell is my driver's license. I NEVER misplace it and the one time that I need it IT'S MISSING!!! I have until the 17th to register for these classes, but the thing is that they're both internet classes and we all know how fast those get taken up. *Sigh* I have looked everywhere for this stupid I.D. where in the heck could it be???????????????!!!!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

2005-12-27T10:44:00.000-08:00

Hey guys!
Just wanted to say that I hope all of you had a very Merry Christmas. It was a great one this year for me and my fam. We all made out like bandits and my mom made the most delicious dinner ever. It was just really nice to spend time with my family and friends. I got the most beautiful necklace from Erik...it's a heart pendant with Gavin's picture engraved on it...it's sooo neat how they did it. And I also got a bike which I'm really excited about...Simon and I have already been around the neighborhood a couple of times and I'm ready to hit the bike trails over here by my house. Gavin got a motorized Jeep Wrangler from Grandma and Pappy, a Dirt Devil vaccum cleaner from Erik and I, a Radio Flyer red tricycle from Santa, a ball pit from Aunt Melanie and Uncle Jon, and a Sit 'n Spin from Aunt Karen. Not to mention a whole lot of other stuff that's too long to list. My mom really liked the bible Erik and I gave her with her name engraved on it. Melanie and Jon loved the photo album Erik and I put together of some pictures we had of them. My dad loved his Little Richard cd and Karen was so excited to finally get the new Mariah Carey cd (even though Erik wrapped it about 20 times to be an ass..it was sooo funny watching her unravel all the ribbon and scotch tape.) All in all it was a great Christmas......can't wait 'til New Years!!

House full of sickness.

2005-12-13T11:01:00.000-08:00

There has been an overwhelming cloud of sickness floating over my house these past couple of days. Not only have I been sick but my mom, Erik, and Gavin have been sick as well. Needless to say, we've all been close to pulling one another's hair out (except Gavin.) We're all cranky, irritable, soup eaters right now..and it sucks. Please God let us all be better by Saturday! So on that note, I'm really excited about the Christmas party we're having on Saturday. Mostly I'm anxious to see everyone together and to see what everyone's been up too. Is it me, or had this holiday season zoomed by? I've barely started my Christmas shopping, and I had all these holiday plans for Erik, Gavin and I to do..but it just seems like we're running out of time. The Christmas clock needs to slow down so I can enjoy the time spent with my family and friends..and not have to worry so much about shopping.

First bad haircut.

2005-12-05T09:39:00.000-08:00

So my mom and I took Gavin to get his haircut yesterday. And yes people, mark the date...it was his first BAD haircut. I told the lady that I wanted it to be short and spikey, with some length on the top to put gel in it to spike it. And before I knew it, it was COMPLETLY cut off...she might as well had shaved it. I mean his hair will grow out and everything..but come on now. On a happier note, he barely cried...she gave him a sucker and that did the trick..oh and my mom was getting her haircut right across from him and she was making silly faces so that helped too. I will admit that I'm a little sad that his curls were cut off...but that's his natural hair type so it will grow back.

In other news, I'm really enjoying the church my family and I are going too. Gavin has yet to get adjusted to the daycare...but hopefully there will be more playing and less crying in the future. Also, we got two angels off the angel tree at church..so we shopped for them yesterday and they should be getting their gifts on Saturday. It's a great christmas program that we're doing because the angels on the tree are prison inmate's kids who are living with their grandparents. I would just like to say that if you can..please go to your local church or mall and pick up an angel. There are so many less fortunate children out there who will not be having a Christmas this year. Think of how much joy a $10 gift will bring them on Christmas Day :) .

Ok, well I'm off to do Christmas cards. I hope everyone is having a great Monday so far!

sings Leaving on a jet plane..don't know when I'll be back again...

2005-11-21T16:59:00.000-08:00

Ok,
So I'm not leaving on a jet plane, and I do know when I'm coming back. BUT I do need some help planning a trip to Kentucky. That's right! Erik, Gavin, and I will be venturing to the big K for the Thanksgiving holiday. I am really excited to be seeing Erik's fam and just to get away! So considering this is my first time to be on a big trip with my family..I welcome any advice you can give me. We will be leaving Wednesday morning and coming back on Sunday. As of right now Billie (Erik's sister) says that it's chilly over there. So I will be packing warm clothes. Do any of you have any good ideas on what to bring to a long trip like that? I know you might have some ideas Dina considering you're always traveling to see your fam. Do you have any life saving advice in regards to Gavin and the twelve hour ride? PLEASE LET ME KNOW!
As for now, I'm starting to pack and check off the little list Erik and I have made.

I hope everyone has a great Turkey Day!

Gobble Gobble!

Christmas songs already!!?????????!!!???

2005-11-15T10:11:00.000-08:00

I cannot believe my ears. I'm listening to Christmas music flowing through the rooms of my house today. What the %@#$? I don't know about you guys, but I think this is ridiculous! They pulled this crap last year and I swear that Thanksgiving felt like Christmas all day. What are they trying to do to me??? Whatever happened to playing them the weekend after Thanksgiving? No wonder everyone is ready to pull each other heads off by Christmas Eve..because we've had been bombarded by Christmas songs wayyyyyyyyyy too early!

As of right now, I am banning the listening of Christmas songs until Nov. 26th. Who's with me!?

I HATE MY BROTHER!!

2005-11-10T21:21:00.000-08:00

I am soooooo f**kin tired of my brother living here!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish I could scream it for all the world to hear. How is it that my own brother can bring the worst out of me? He thinks he owns everything, and he has no respect for NOTHING. He is literally putting every one of us in a depression. Before Joe got here..we understood how thankful we needed to be that we had such great parents to open their home out to us. Joe does not see that, he sees like they owe him something..uggghhhhh. I just wish he could understand how miserable he's making all of us.

Please God help us!

Thank you!

2005-11-06T12:04:00.000-08:00

Thanks to everyone who was apart of my birthday someway or another :)
I had a great time..and I hope everyone did too!
Thanks again for the crazyness and laughter! I'll never forget it!!

Love you guys!

It's comin' up!

2005-11-03T10:31:00.000-08:00

yAY! My birthday is almost here! I'm really happy because hopefully I'll get to see everybody. If you haven't rsvp'd me or melanie about this weekend...you need too!! he he Melanie just needs to know how many people are coming so she can reserve enough room. So far I have:

Dina
Vic
Katy
Theresa T. and date
and my family.

So hurry up and let us know!!
Yay..*singing* I'm so excited! I'm so excited!

Love ya!

Officially Exhausted

2005-10-25T10:28:00.000-07:00

Ok,
So today is the official "taking care of Kenzie while her mommy works" day. I did, however, take care of her half a day yesterday..I guess like a trial run or something. And it was just awful. Don't get me wrong..I love Kenzie very much..but she was going through this "I am going to puke up everything and not sleep at all" day. I was so exhausted when Karen came home that I upped my daycare charges to a $100 more...(I doubt she took me seriously though.)

Today is going much better. She took her bottle like a good girl (didn't spit up at all.) And she has been sleeping ever since. I'm worried about taking care of her and Gavin at the same time now. It has really made me think about what it would be like to have another baby. And I know..I'm officially not ready. Maybe in two to three years..lol.

On another note, I want to thank you all who came to Melanie's birthday party. It went off without a hitch. And she said she had the BEST time ever. Wasn't the Karaoke fun? Oh my God, I have some awfully incriminating photos here..he he he. Here are a list of some costumes that had me at "hello" :P

1. Melanie-punk rocker. This girl had a 6 inch mohawk. It was awesome!

2. Jon- it was this "got cut while shaving" costume. But it was sooooo scary. He had blood all over, he looked like a satan worshiper if you ask me.

3. Dina- bar maid. I think a few of you have seen this one. But it just gets cuter and cuter. I wish I had the bod to wear it!

4. Erik- OHHHH my gosh! He was hilarious. He had put cotton all over his shirt. So everyone was like "What are you?" And he's like "I'm partly cloudy with a chance of rain." And he would spray you with a spray bottle. It was too cute.

5. Gavin- Awwwww. My little devil. It was funny..because I would take him around and I would be like "Look at my little angel." And then everyone would be like "You mean devil." And then I would be like.."Yeah, that too!"

6. Corry- My cousin had the funniest looking Afro. Get this a 6ft. tall white boy with an afro..it had me in tears.

7. Karen- she was a cute little bunny. Who I might add..was able to take back her bunny ears and tail and get her $18 back. Devious I tell you.

8. Star- another devil in the house! She looked soooo cute!

9. Dylan- Darth vader. Need I say more?
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0. Brandon- Dennis the Menace. He had the cutest little alfafa, and overalls and a boomarang! He really was workin' the part.

11. Stacy- Last but not least! I was a Diva Witch. Had my wig goin' and my feather boa pants. I had to say..I was workin' it as well.

I hope I'm not forgetting anybody who wore a costume. There were a whole bunch of other people who came over costumeless..and we still love you! Thanks for making Melanie's birthday soooo special!

Pics

2005-10-17T11:41:00.000-07:00

Hey!
Here are some new pics of Gavin. Man, it sure does take a long time for dial-up to upload pictures...whewww!

Silly Gavin

2005-10-17T11:40:00.001-07:00

Silly Gavin
Originally uploaded by spacy8.